I take and take
pictures to slow
everything down
to encapsulate
the energy
to make it
manageable
tangible
accessible
symmetrical.
I listen and listen
to music
so loud
it vibrates
through
disrupting my
heartbeat
trying to blow
the thoughts
out of my head
but it never happens
as the thoughts
live in the music
that I love
never separating
from the moments
cemented
ingrained
in my memory.
I write and write
to avoid paralysis
to face the pain
so I don't go insane
so I'm not lonely
in my mind
feeling too much
seeing too much
during this time
in this beautiful place
full of wonder
with so many people
living disconnected
from each other.
Jill Fitz 2016
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