I take and take

pictures to slow

everything down

to encapsulate

the energy

to make it

manageable

tangible

accessible

symmetrical.

I listen and listen

to music

so loud

it vibrates

through

disrupting my

heartbeat

trying to blow

the thoughts

out of my head

but it never happens

as the thoughts

live in the music

that I love

never separating

from the moments

cemented

ingrained

in my memory.

I write and write

to avoid paralysis

to face the pain

so I don't go insane

so I'm not lonely

in my mind

feeling too much

seeing too much

during this time

in this beautiful place

full of wonder

with so many people

living disconnected

from each other.

Jill Fitz 2016